About

“About the reason we exist and why we love and fight.”

There was this point in my life, just after I had finished my (fashion design) studies, when, due to different circumstances, I was desperate to find ‘the reason of life’. I felt as if I couldn’t continue it otherwise. My deepest struggle was: Why I am alive and secondly: Why people have to suffer (and to clarify: I am not only referring to people which live in war situations but also to the people I am surrounded with, the ones, whom we might think are well and happy). 

So I began to learn about our bodies and brains in order to understand why we think the way we do and why we are the way we are. I researched into anatomy, biology, chemistry, clinical pharmacology, neuroscience, nutritional science, philosophy, physics, physiology, psychology, social and cultural anthropology and sociology. I also looked into alternative practices such as Ayurveda and traditional Chinese medicine. In fact, I was curious about all discoveries related to us humans, from the past until today (and I tell you, there is a lot..).

Time passed and it might be that I became a little obsessed with wanting to understand us humans and our bodies, minds and souls. However, in the end, it was this knowledge that gave me the confidence and strength to continue when I was questioning life.

It turned Juli in the year of 2021 and a human, whom I love very much, died next to me. This event deeply affected my world and looking back now, it was a point in my life to which I would love to go back with the understanding I have today, but I guess that often (or always?) is the case..

Today I know: ‘Life teaches you lessons before feeling ready for them’ and:‘You can not control everything, even if you wish for it super bad.’ I accept that, I can not prevent people from leaving this planet, nor make everyone feel good with their lives, you all choose that for yourself. Still, I can share my experience and share what helped me , maybe you can profit from it aswell.

Sharing this it is important to me because I love you, I see you as my family and I want you to be happy.

Actually, I wish for nothing more.

All the best, 

Wanda J.

Foot note: 
Due to the country and time I was born into, I am able to study and research by myself. I understand that this is an immense benefit, and I am extremely thankful for that. That is another reason for me to share.